It's no fun to be thinking about the future, when you know it will hurt you.
2012-09-05
I really just wish that everything could get back to normal. Just go back 6months. Almost everything was perfect back then. But now everything and everybody is starting to change. It's not that I don't like changes, I do. But this change Im not ready for. It just feels like I've lost grip of my own life. Maybe the change is for the best, but it will and it does still hurt. I know that everything good must come to an end, but some things you just wish you could have forever.
I thought coming to a "new school" would be fun, that I would start to learn new people and still have my old friends. So far as Im concerned this is the suckiest school start ever. Right know it feels like it's going to be the worst year in my life. Yes I've got to know new people, but it feels like I've lost some old. And Im not good in loosing something, never have been never going to be. It hurts. But maybe I now finally get to see who's really is there for me, and who's not. It will hurt, but I'll get stronger. I will.
There's one thing lightning up my day in school. It's to see that perfect face with the always welcoming smile. At those times I feel happy. Im starting to sound like Blair Waldorff.. Hahahah. But still.
Ciao Bellas, gotta get to school!
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